Posts tagged: on life

Small Brag, feel free to skip

So I may have mentioned that I was moved into the marketing department at work when my contract was ending. Which quickly became, Brynn IS the marketing department. And I went with it, despite having no qualification other than liking writing and wanting to continue making more than a retail hourly wage.

And you know what? I’m good at this. I just checked response data from our last three mailings, each of which I designed (HTML bitches!) and wrote the copy for, and they were successful. I’m just really proud of myself.

Ever since puberty, ever since I was 11 or 12, I’ve had cyclical depression. That’s something that has been a defining feature of my life as an adult. It’s manageable. But it’s real. And it doesn’t take away from my joy or my work or my energy, but coping with depression is something that is part of the everyday way that I live and have lived for as long as I can remember. … Depression for me, you can’t distract your way out of it. … When you are depressed, it’s like the rest of the world is the mother ship, and you’re out there on a little pod and your line gets cut and you don’t connect with anything. You sort of disappear. And so it’s not something you can talk-therapy out of. It’s really a chemical thing. You get adrenaline from work, but adrenaline is not a cure.

I had a dream last night that Washington, DC was destroyed by an earthquake. And then I went on camera to give an epic rant on the failures of media to provide accurate and appropriate coverage of disasters.

So I didn’t sleep well. And have to go to a 7:30 (AM) meeting.

Moderately Important Life Things of Moderate Importance That Have Occurred Recently
  • One of my three jobs offered to extend my contract through the end of the summer. Now, instead of being the odd girl out that is mistakenly called the intern, I’m still called the intern, but have absorbed more marketing duties.
  • Promptly after I accepted this offer, the marketing team fell apart. For real- two people (with actual marketing training) moved onto other positions, and the head is out for 2-4 weeks (at least!) on medical leave.
  • However, I quit 1/3 of my jobs, and now have weekends off this summer. Weekends off! On a continual basis! Oh the tattoos and baking! And marathoning the O.C and Breaking Bad with Rocio, while trying to work my way into her family so they adopt me and I can move to South America (or the Vatican) and never pay back my student loans!!
  • I am not an Avenger, and this is sad.
  • I have a list of summer goals! Including, but not limited to: making vegan borek, making pretzels, getting grad school apps together, taking the GRE, marathoning the O.C and Breaking Bad with Rocio, eating pretzels and drinking beer
  • I’ve been working on building a website for professional and artistic purposes. Or so I can say I have a website. Or so I have a new way to procrastinate. Have website building skills and skillz? Share them, please. It’ll be using Squarespace.
  • I realized today, while eating peanut butter at work, I really love peanut butter. But for real you guys. YOU GUYS. I could eat a jar of peanut butter a day. I would! I don’t know what’s stopping me. Challenge accepted.
Realization

I say “awesome” a lot.

Maybe I should work on that.

My mom and I might share a coffee addiction. This morning, we debated who got the first pot of coffee.

Pot.Of.Coffee.

Did I tell the Interwebs about the 5 weeks my smoke alarm kept going off? Like, once every half hour? And I was too short to reach it? Even on a chair?
yeah. that was awesome.

Did I tell the Interwebs about the 5 weeks my smoke alarm kept going off? Like, once every half hour? And I was too short to reach it? Even on a chair?

yeah. that was awesome.